changing habits

22 Apr

The habits of complacency are hard to break.  They sneak so softly into your life you may not even notice them.

It’s so easy to point the finger of blame at things outside of yourself; work, upbringing, love, loss.  But in the end we each choose our own life.  We choose which of our circumstances we accept and which we will change.

It is scary when you realise you’ve gone so far down a path you don’t remember your way back.  It’s scary to commit to change.  To determine that even though you may fall you will keep on getting up and pushing forward.

And so the hero is afraid, and faces failure more often than success.  But the hero picks themself up and tries again and again until in the end they are triumphant.

Yes, it is scary to shake up the pattern of your life however comfortable it may seem.  But it is far more tragic to think you may miss out on life if you don’t.  So out of a desire for life I struggle.  I struggle to find the energies and passions that once drove me to action.  I struggle for momentum and for zest.

I sit here in the morning sun, listening to a magpie’s song.  I am so in love with life, how could I forget.  When I look at the world through a child’s eye, with all its wonders all around, I could not bear to miss a moment of it.

And so I struggle.  And so I must succeed.

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2 Responses to “changing habits”

  1. Nancy April 22, 2012 at 11:40 pm #

    Wow – my heart has been spilling over with those same words: scary, struggle, find those energies, passions, action, ZEST FOR LIFE! Scary, complacency, however comfortable it may seem… Then, don’t forget the wonder – Thanks!

    • emilyelst April 23, 2012 at 2:28 pm #

      Thank you Nancy. It’s always good to know you’re not alone in your experience. I hope we both succeed 🙂

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